High hopes but Laid down!

I started my School days sincerely and regularly,
with lots of  industrious, expectations and hope.
Keeping aside numerous distractions and sacrificing a lots,
I worked tirelessly and timelessly to get a good career,
And to the goal of accomplishing my aim.

I had adapted the countless methods and strategies,
Never before any one has employed and it's unique.
Time is precious, and I had utilized every minute of it,
To the goal of striving an excellence in all, and
Yet it laid down, and remained under my knees!

Every time I remained late at night and woke up by an early,
I didn't bother my friends yelled out as a Nocturnal to me,
And Silverfish by my mentors, I keeps on doing my best.
I  had a setup goals, which was there for a long time ago,
Whence it gives me a strength to prepare for my best,
And there my hope remains high all the time and invariable.

 Though I'm not a loyal to all my teachers in the eyes of many,
But I paid respects and obey, listen to what they have spoken,
And acquired their teachings,which I took it as a Vast Expanse.
God! is always there for me and I prostrate the best I could, and
I felt I am Blessed and cared by the power of almighty God!
But where are all those luck has gone, and where is the favors in me,
Where is the rewards for my hard work, and why I'm left with suffering?

Now to whom I should question and to whom I should blame?
To my teachers, parents, friends or lover?
There is no success in me, and there is no luck with me.
I got only a small heart, and now it start to melt and lose hope,
For me this worldly and eternal realm of existence is found a big hollow,
Which I did not see hope and an inspiration, I am totally in lost. And
Now I must accept this as my karma, and I should go in line with the faith,
Karmic faith reveal what I have and take it into the ones own destination.


                                                               Composed in 2010, when I was in 10